Don’t we all want to look back and think ‘man, I nailed my life!’. With friends, influencers and celebrities plastered all over social media; there is a fine line between feeling like you have achieved something and feeling like someone else has done it better. I learnt the hard way that it is easy to get caught up in other people’s lives. I spent time comparing and criticising myself when I could have pushed that energy into worrying about my own life, and how I can be the best me.
Life is short, and we have a short time to make a difference and leave some of ourselves behind - a legacy if you will. I want to be able to look back to last week or to three years ago or to twenty years ago and be proud of what I have accomplished. Past me is not one to be proud of herself. From a young age, I was often called lazy and annoying by my peers, and so that was how I perceived myself. I had all this creative energy, and I didn’t know how to express it. When I looked in the mirror, that was the only version of me I saw, and so everyone else was by default, better than me.
At the beginning of the year, I started a five-year diary, and instead of writing the number of Netflix episodes I watched that day, I began writing about my wins for that day. Still though, binge-watching an entire TV series in one day is an achievement, am I right? I pushed myself to carry out at least one successful thing every single day, and from someone who struggles with mental health, you never know what obstacle you will face that day. On the hardest days, if all I have done is gotten out of bed and opened my curtains, then I am pretty proud of myself.
Ultimately, I want to leave my mark on the world, and I want to use my platform to make a difference, even if it is just to one person. I want to make my future self-proud, work hard and make my way in life. Just as someone said to me the other day, “an author is just a writer who never gave up.”
Depending on your outlook on the world, whether it is working hard to succeed or chilling and enjoying yourself, only you can decide that you have done yourself proud. So, what I am trying to say is, look after yourself, don’t ever stop, don’t ever give up and you’re so, so worth it.